Thats it! Rental appraisal has been done and we're going with Payton Jewell & Caines Estate Agents. We should hopefully be looking at achieving £525 per month. Survey for the new mortgage has been done too (which went well) so its all systems go now. We just need to speak with Danielles school now and give them the heads up on whats happening!
I had another restless night last night - the anxiety seems to stem from what happened to me after taking the tablets - I'm not flamin anxious about anything else - very frustrating! I'm sure it'll pass soon though! (flamin hope so anyway!).
Mum has been staying at Trecco Bay in Porthcawl this week with her friend and my niece & nephew. I've been taking Danielle down there after school each day which has been nice. The first night we went to the beach and last night we went swimming - lovely pool! Weather is rubbish today though so not sure what we'll do. It gets us out of the house though which is never a bad thing!
Time for brekkie for me now!
Wednesday, September 14, 2005
Monday, September 12, 2005
Another restless night last night!
I've not updated the blog for a few days because I've been quite down. Anxiety is a flamin horrible thing and sooooo irrational. What really freaks me out is that I'm being anxious about becoming anxious - work that one out!!!! Its a viscious flamin circle I tell you.
Basically what happened was I had the one panic attack as I explained previously. That was on the Wednesday evening and after that one I was absolutely fine. I knew that I needed to start relaxing and let Gray take over the Australia business and thats exactly what I did. I cut out caffiene (sp?), cut out alcohol and started to relax. So on the Friday I went to speak to the doctor who 'lovingly' prescribed me anti-depressants (citalopram/celexa)!! I took one on the Friday and one on the Saturday and then the Saturday night was absolutely horrendous!! My heart was pounding like nobodies business and I was a complete tremor. It was very very frightening. This continued until the Sunday when I finally went to see the Emergency doctor who gave me 2mg diazepam to calm me down. It seemed to do the trick but I still wasn't 100% and wasn't eating or sleeping. I did a bit of research online and found that this had actually happened to someone else who had taken just two of the tablets. By Tuesday I was completely exhausted and a nervous wreck. I again went to see the doctor who didn't know what the hell to do with me! I could tell that she didn't agree with me that this was an effect of the tablets and she was on the phone straight away trying to get me assessed at the hospital, telling them that I had acute Anxiety Disorder symptoms! This was true I know but I really wanted her to take seriously the fact that I believed it was the tablets that had caused it. Listening to her on the phone made me worse as I knew that she actually believed it was all me and that I needed help. I left with another prescription of Diazapem and ended up taking two that day and was also given sleeping pills (which thankfully I didn't need!). All day then I got so stressed because I had to listen to the doctor talking to the hospital and telling them how bad she believed I was. It played on my mind constantly that I was a complete basket case and was going to end up in hospital!
Anyway I am getting better day by day but what really infuriates me is that I wouldn't be experiencing this anxiety had it not been for those tablets (I firmly believe that!).
I'm not taking any medication now except for herbal Kalms every now and again and I'm feeling a lot better for it. I am still having anxious times and it is constantly playing on my mind but it certainly isn't going to beat me! Australia is still on hold at the moment but we're not due to got until 10th November so hopefully things will be a lot better by then.
Thats enough rambling from me for today!
Basically what happened was I had the one panic attack as I explained previously. That was on the Wednesday evening and after that one I was absolutely fine. I knew that I needed to start relaxing and let Gray take over the Australia business and thats exactly what I did. I cut out caffiene (sp?), cut out alcohol and started to relax. So on the Friday I went to speak to the doctor who 'lovingly' prescribed me anti-depressants (citalopram/celexa)!! I took one on the Friday and one on the Saturday and then the Saturday night was absolutely horrendous!! My heart was pounding like nobodies business and I was a complete tremor. It was very very frightening. This continued until the Sunday when I finally went to see the Emergency doctor who gave me 2mg diazepam to calm me down. It seemed to do the trick but I still wasn't 100% and wasn't eating or sleeping. I did a bit of research online and found that this had actually happened to someone else who had taken just two of the tablets. By Tuesday I was completely exhausted and a nervous wreck. I again went to see the doctor who didn't know what the hell to do with me! I could tell that she didn't agree with me that this was an effect of the tablets and she was on the phone straight away trying to get me assessed at the hospital, telling them that I had acute Anxiety Disorder symptoms! This was true I know but I really wanted her to take seriously the fact that I believed it was the tablets that had caused it. Listening to her on the phone made me worse as I knew that she actually believed it was all me and that I needed help. I left with another prescription of Diazapem and ended up taking two that day and was also given sleeping pills (which thankfully I didn't need!). All day then I got so stressed because I had to listen to the doctor talking to the hospital and telling them how bad she believed I was. It played on my mind constantly that I was a complete basket case and was going to end up in hospital!
Anyway I am getting better day by day but what really infuriates me is that I wouldn't be experiencing this anxiety had it not been for those tablets (I firmly believe that!).
I'm not taking any medication now except for herbal Kalms every now and again and I'm feeling a lot better for it. I am still having anxious times and it is constantly playing on my mind but it certainly isn't going to beat me! Australia is still on hold at the moment but we're not due to got until 10th November so hopefully things will be a lot better by then.
Thats enough rambling from me for today!
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